The Self-Confidence to Top

My husband has mentioned several times this year of his desire for me to top. I think my enjoyment as a bottom had more than sparked his curiosity. I smiled and said ok, but truthfully I was terrified. Topping, being a domme takes a certain amount of self-confidence, a true inner-power. As open as I am sexually, I am clearly lacking in the self-assurance department. I didn’t know if I could hold a straight face and enforce discipline, treating Chris like my sex slave being powerful and cocky at the same time.

I spent time planning different things I could do and ways to bind him to the bed so that he would still be accessible to me in every position I desired. I prepared for the evening, hoping to surprise him with a long and sensual session that would give him the full experience of losing all control. I still couldn’t go through with it, something kept holding me back. I finally decided if I was going to fulfill my husbands deepest fantasy I would have to work on building my self-confidence.

I have purchased the book The Mistress Manual: The Good Girl’s Guide to Female Dominance and I look forward to giving you a full review and a followup to what will hopefully be a very successful session.

What do you think makes a top? What inspires you as a domme?